MIA much?

Sorry for MIA for quite some time. Been busy for a whiiiiiiillllleeee. Ugh. I just loathe being a student & I love my girlfriend. Okay. Random much?

Have a blast, readers!

All Time Low

Dear conscience,

I’ve never felt this pitiful before. My friends are disappointing me, I don’t know how to fix it, and I know I’m doing nothing to improve the situation. I’m so lost in my life and I don’t know what the next corner will hold. I’m turning quickly but I’m not sure if I’m in the right or wrong. At this point, it doesn’t really matter though. I feel the urge to leave everyone behind and take up some new friends but I know that would hurt a lot of people and that running away doesn’t solve anything. I’m playing people like they’re my friends yet while I’m alone I don’t feel a connection at all. I have a bunch of close friends and those which I once considered close haven’t proved anything to me. I’ve tried reaching out, it didn’t help. I’ve tried being the friend I want to have, still no change. I don’t know what’s next and I’m scared where this will lead me.

My faith is at an all time low. After a high bounce I’m falling at incredible speeds. Just hours ago I would have raved about the high but oh how things have changed. I know before the healing comes the pain so I have hopes this will all turn around.

Confused,
Truth behind the Lost.

YUHUU

find me here - thesavio.tumblr.com

NOTHING BUT THE UGLY TRUTH

What is going on with our world recently? I mean seriously. Could it get any more worse than this? Just because of one silly issue uncivilized civilians try to detonate every church in Malaysia? This is so wrong & fucked up.

It seems to pit CHRISTIANS & MUSLIMS against each other.

And now i find myself in an awkward place.

I do not want that way.

Do you know how hard it has been every time I meet my Muslim friends and we try so hard to avoid this stupidity when we meet up.

I SHIT YOU NOT!

I can't tell for certain if they are affected by it, though it is safer to assume that they are to a certain degree.

Eventually, both sides will claim they are in the right with no compromise in sight. With this impasse, we have to agree to disagree. However, I do feel that we, as ONE MALAYSIANS, should step into each other's shoes for a change to fathom why we feel the way we do. If we cannot come to our consensus just yet, LET US AT LEAST COME TO AN UNDERSTANDING. Logistic & Idealistic but no harm done if we try right?

I am not saying my Muslim friends will cut me off if the court rules in favour of the Herald come the appeal, NOR i will alienate my Muslim friends if the decision swings the other way.

I SHALL NOT.

But do bear in mind, it could create an uneasiness among the two communities, where insecurities and conspiracy theories might fester. If that is the case and I may get chastised for this, I don't want to be right.

Just be matured & be civilized when come to handle any sensitive issues.

p/s: Malaysians, let our One Voice be heard.

UNITED WE STAND NOT DIVIDED WE FALL.

RESOLUTIONS

Some people hate
Some people love

Some people are procrastinators
Some people act now

Some people love to point fingers
Some people love to extend their hands

Some people question every answer
Some people have an answer to every question

Some people hate to lose an argument
Some people love to win hearts

Some people want a change
Some people want to be the change

Some people are blind except to their own colour
Some people are colour blind

Some people are proud to belong to their race
Some people take pride in belonging to the human race

This New Year, it is not about who is perfect and who is not. It is about sharing One Legacy, One Destiny, 1 MALAYSIA. Because to build a GREAT nation we must all learn to see the perfections in the imperfections.

MAY 2010 BE ONE HELLUVA YEAR TO US MANKIND.

CHEERS.

LESSON LEARNT

IT IS 4.00 A.M AND IM STILL SITTING & FACING MY PC.

i am so fucked right now.

why didnt i listen to my aunt. i should have. well, there is no point to cry over a spilt milk. there are cases when we accidentally left our car keys inside and if we carry along our own spare set of car keys then i guess there are no problemo but most of the time we dont carry our spare keys cos no one does. LOL.

this is what actually happpened.

i came over to my relatives' house for a bbq/birthday party. so, we kinda had fun, i got tired, went back to my other aunt place (i had to stay there alone cos no one is taking care of her house as she is in oman) and i think you know how the rest went. long story short, i was supposed to sleep over at their house and they decided to fetch me but noooooo..i was toooo stubborn to drive on my own. so when i did, i finally came to their house and was remotely stupid the fact that i got out from the car and slammed the door REALLY HARD and the door automatically locked itself and ALL MY PERSONAL THINGS ARE INSIDE THAT STUPID CAR. it was around 12.30 a.m. sharp! not to mention the lights and the radio were ON. i freaked out and panicked. i mean who wouldnt right?

so, my relative and i put our hardest effort to unlock the door with PARANG, SESIKU, PISAU, and SCREW DRIVER. to our dismay, nothing fucking works and yes i did call my family but instead of getting help from them i got scolded.

congratufuckinglations darrell

so i had no choice but to spend exactly 3 excruciating hours to unlock it but IT WONT BUDGE.

you know, when you come to a point where you really cannot do anything to resolve a major problem you may result to do things you cant possibly imagine. trust me, i did that.

i called the friggin police!!! YES THE POLICE!!!

some serious pile of bollocks ey?

below here are the rough conversations between me and the helpful policeman

police : hello !@#$%^?

D : hello ini polis miri ka?

police : ya, ada apa yang saya boleh bantu?

D : saya mahu minta tolong......(i told him what happened)..

police : oh? jadi kamu mahu kami tolong kamu untuk buka pintu la?

D : ya, bolehkah? (i was thinking 'seriously man, could he really do that?")

police : maaf ya, kami ini polis dan kami tidak buat kerja sebegitu. encik, patut minta

tolong daripada kawan-kawan encik!

conversation ends.........

some 1 MALAYSIA SPIRIT HUH?

so we kinda let the engine running and wait until the next day.

how stupid is that?

you tell me.

lesson learnt : never ever drive ANY PROTON!!

SOI!

JUST CAN'T SAY GOODBYE YET

HAPPY EID-UL FITRI TO ALL OF MY MUSLIM FRIENDS!

ahh. it has been a while since i jotted down all my personal complaints and the good times! regardless, i had a blast during raya and i am looking forward for a better one next year. did a lot of catching up with some old friends and kinda made some new frenemies. HAHA. as far as im concern raya is about forgiving someone who has wronged us in the past right? ironically, after some horrible things happened in the past 2 years, some of them can be remotely "JAHIL" at times.

SOME PEOPLE.

why do good things always come to end?

i hope everyone is having a-raya-blast like i did.

TUCHE.

MOTHER F.

sigh.

i know it will come to this but i just have to forgive and forget because we all make mistakes.

mistakes usually start with the best of intentions like keeping a secret to protect someone or getting the distance from a person you've become. sometimes we don't even know what mistakes we've made to get us where we are or we figure it out just in time to make it right again but every mistake happens for a reason to teach you a lesson when you'd otherwise never learn and hopefully we never make that mistake again.

confused much? cos i am.

embrace whatever you have otherwise you would regret and you know there is no point crying over a spilt milk.

SHOUT OUT!!

YO! thanks a heap for wishing me a happy birthday and i really appreciate em right to the core.


Firstly, Ruth, credits to u for mengorbankan masa anda dalam meng-edit-kan blog saya. haha. AND my hot mummy whom i just met 3 years ago in Curtin uni. (not biological one). thanks to you, u've made my day even brighter and more cooler. seriously! next, TERIMA KASIH to all my course mates for a blast surprise birthday at Noni's restaurant even though i had to pay every single thing (i don't mind actually) and got smashed with balloons with air kopi in em. i know how bad it tastes and sucks BIG TIME but hey the thoughts that actually count right? also the cool presents from my brother Darren and some other peers. CHEERS TO THAT. i did not really expect birthday cake but still Darren managed to buy a special one or in my case special-3-ones. haha. last but not least GOD BLESS YOU ALL AND WISH U ALL THE BEST OF LUCK IN EVERYTHING YOU DO even if it means getting into trouble just for the sake of fun times!


*TUCHE*

DEDICATION

fuuh. before i am literally away from my laptop and officially sign off from my blog, i would like to take this opportunity to congratulate my dear sis, Constance Stanley Guang as she had successfully graduated 2nd class upper from Malaya University. the very 1st engineer in the family. tuche sis. am really proud of you......AND envy you at the same time. well who could have thought my one and only sis had literally flew all over the amazing places that i have yet to visit (if my two bosses let me) and still obtain a degree in environmental engineering. DARN i bet u have gone through a lot. so here's a toast to you sis - get rid of the bad and on with the new, may 2009 be one hell of a roller coaster ride for you. amen to that yo

HIATUS

so yeah. currently in hiatus bcos blogging bores me right down to the core. and credits to my dear aunt hazel lenna james for her kindness n efforts in decorating my blog even though it is so not into my likings n choice of colors. HAHA.

OH SWELL..

uh huh. never have i imagined that i would ever admitted to a world known scariest place on earth a.k.a the hospital. yeah. i got admitted last night ( or maybe early in the morning in my case) due to food poisoning. lucky me yo! haha. twas like my dream came true after all those yeaaars! haha. the nurses were quite friendly when i first got there and by friendly i mean very courteous.

nurse #1 :ehh. malang da jak nasib kita tok you. malam2 cam tok dah ada patient *sigh*

nurse #2 :aok eehhh. (irritated tone)

when i heard they said that, oh boy was i pissed off and was about to combust and felt like saying fuck you very much for the hospitality but i was too weak to do so (but still i dont do violence anymore. LOL!!) maaan i miss home so much.

other than that, i was ecstatic and happy as my two aunts (the james) came down to kuching just to visit me. haha. no lah. it was just A COINCIDENCE if u ask me. HAHA. and also my coursemates who are very kind-hearted to visit me eventhough they had to go through all those trouble by renting a busted junk. GOD BLESS THEMMM. *sob sob*

ahh, this is where i crashed in. yeap. felt like a live corpse. haahaa.

argh. the headache and boredom.

a goodnight's sleep shall help a lot so i can enjoy the rest of the day tomorrow!

CAN IT GET ANYMORE WORSE?

life nowadays is a bitch.

maan, seriously. my campus are filled with assholes and fucked up losers. seriously people, why in fucking tarnation would they do that? no offense but we malaysians can be really hypocryte SOMETIMES. what am i yapping about? well u see, some people really know how to be a pain in the arse. they think they are all that and stuff but as a matter fact they are not. seriously yo, they need a life. a REAL one. to brag about something u DON'T and CAN NEVER HAVE is waaaaaaaaaaaaay wrong and stupid. really stupid. another thing, malaysians nowadays really have the urge to do the 'stop and stare' thing. i know bcos i was the victim. and no i didnt resort to violence or anything because i am civillized u see. its because i really learn my lesson and no i wont be afraid to admit it. all i did was just shrugged and flashed my friendly finger. well the next thing they did was..who cares anyway. for all i know i showed em the true civillized courtesy. hah! some shenanigans!!

i kid u not.

there are still alot unimaginable things happened recently but i guess i hafta end it here cos i have two pending assignments that are waiting to be done. oh swell. it hasnt been a week since i started my new sem and my assignments are piling up like a pile of bollocks.

aaah. the world and its tremendous wonders. I hope God has something in store for me to be able to keep my sanity and put up with minor bullshit like this every single fucking day.

amen to that

MODE : NERD

hmmmm. just got back to the reality. whoa. i didnt realise it will hit me rock bottom haaarrdd. maaan im not ready to say goodbye to my family yet. plus i havent even met my sister who is now in nz. i miss my big old dad and my darling mum very dearly. DAMN IT GOT ME SO BAAADDD. now im back to the reality i guess i pretty much have to put the nerd mode back on. some horse shit huh? u tell me about it. i really miss my dad's silly jokes, my mum's stupendous behaviour (she really does have 1), my boisterous siblings who regularly irritate me but really do crack me up through out those days and not to forget my funny dogs. HAHA. everytime i come home, they really know how to surprise me with their bumps. yes their PREGNANCIES. not to mention i have more than 5 bitches at home. seriously. ahh. im jetlagged, tired both emotionally and physically.

PRAISE THE LORD!

until then everyone.

tuche

WHY DO ALL GOOD THINGS COME TO AN END?

pheww. got back from a decent getaway in vietnam and damn was that fun right down to the core. haha. i really enjoyed those moments and i hope this will happen in the next comin years. lol

behold the ho chi minh

park royal-kl

pretty hectic day

vietnamese babes- RAWR

a fine river cruise dinner

another fine dinner by the sea

mud bath

group mud bath

oh hallelujah!

mum on the statue of Jesus

haha

a 1000 steps to heaven

suite in the rex hotel

(my two aunts) the james *wink*

picture taken with some drunken dude



and the END.

AHHH. THOSE were the DAAAYSS.

HIATUS

yosh. am currently in a hiatus mode as im in vietnam. and yes im having a fucking blast!

LIFE IS GOOD

shoot! this shit is soo way over the top!! fuck Apple iPhone. fuck Xperia. damn this LG. they really outdone themselves. Prada has taken the minimalistic approach to the phone's design. on the front, the Prada logo sits proudly on top the screen, while a slim silver bar beneath it punctuates the otherwise sleek piano black casing. on first glance, yes, it does look a little like an Apple iPhone but slide out the bottom half of the phone to the side and out comes a full sleek keyboard! and there's this Prada watch called Prada link. why Prada link? well, it actually has a bluetooth receiver for the phone. everytime someone calls, it will not only appear on the screen of the phone, it also appears on the watch screen. how cool is that? if one wants to reject/answer the phone call, he or she can simply push a small button on the watch. some sicko shit huh? better yet, one can read incoming text thru Prada link itself. and the last time i checked, it costs RM2700!!!!!! all i hafta do is cross my fingers and hope that i can get one. HAAHAAH

p/s: dear GOD, from now on i'll study hard and will often go to church!! AMEN.

BURPDAAAY

the big old man just turned 50 this year and as he said, "life begins at 50." i have to admit he's right. AHAH. we had his birthday at Kok Chee's and was he embarrassed with the birthday song played and all the attention just for him for that night. i've gotta say he's not the kind of man that prefers the limelight. having his birthday with our close-knit family really made me realized that these people are very important to me(of course i know that ever since i was born) but that night was entirely different. all i'm saying is that i am very happy and ecstatic because we had a small family dinner without strangers/not-related-to-us people around us. that's all i'm saying. too bad my sis was not there because she was in kl and still packing to go to new zealand. GOOD LUCK SIS. we'll miss you.

dad

karen and i

after that, we hit the after party at alfresco and then balcony. man the hangover was excruciating and eventually it wore off after two days kicking 3 shots of tequilasss. haha.

nts:1 shot is more than enough

p/s: sorry hazel no pics of us together. will upload em soon in fb yeap? and soooooorrry for the melodramatic scenes the other night. tuche. =))

T.A.G.G.E.D

I just finished my last and quite a "killer" paper-Basic English Language 260 (BEL260)

and i got TAGGED! wtf?

This tagged need you to write on a piece of paper to show how your handwriting look likes and fit your own personality.

Here are the rules of the tag:

1. Write down who tagged you.

2. Answer these:

- your name / user name / pseudo

- right-handed or left-handed?

- your favorite letters to write?

- your least favorite letters to write?

- Write “The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog.”

3. Tag 5 person.

AND THE ANSWERS AREEEE.....

RUTH JUNE RENE AK...

DARRELL STANLEY NORMAN GUANG @ WATT GUANG (phewww)

right!

a,a,a and a

all those alphabets (excluding A)

The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog. (copy paste je its the same anyway)

i wanna tag..NO ONE! its a hassle and tiring to write long n weird names.
(mesti korang tgh menyumpah nak?) HAHA

SIGN, LIVE & INTIMATE

Two ravens in the old oak tree and one for you and one for me
Bluebells in the late December, I see signs now all the time
The last time we slept together, there was something that was not there
You never wanted to alarm me but I’m the one that’s drowning now

I could sleep forever these days because in my dreams I see you again
But this time fleshed out fuller face in your confirmation dress
It was so like you to visit me to let me know you were okay
It was so like you to visit me, always worrying about someone else

At your funeral I was so upset, so upset,
in your life you were larger than this
statue statuesque

I see signs now all the time that you're not dead you're sleeping
I believe in anything that brings you back home to me