THANK GOD IT'S SATURDAY

before i start blabbering, i just wanna say i DIG this hot chick. it is just a thought because she is every guy's girl dream-with the naughty super-rich super-bitch B.W. she plays in G.G. aaaaaah.
(okay. the cats are out of the bags. i admit. i watch gossip girl just because of leighton meester plays on the show)

she has always been and always will be in my heart.

alright.

its 12.13am and i don't have any plans for the weekends( as usual) HAHA.
my brother and his friends/gf are at some night club and i am stuck here thinking about my upcoming final exams.
i am not READY. darn it. i hafta study, study and STUDY! im a self-proclaimed "dork" who would rather be home reading/studying than stay out all night partying. ( i doubt that) i am really very boring.

GOSSSH. i need to live my life. no wonder im a loner and still single. HAHA. i just want to experience a lot and dont want to have to be tied down. if somebody can join me on that (i hope that somebody is a chick), then thats great. however, i want to do so many things-and maybe someday a lot of it will be impossible, but right now i dont see the impossible.

oh ya, mind you, it made me realize that one cant judge anyone, for what they have done in their past, because PEOPLE CHANGE. ive noticed some people get very enthralled with people bashing. sometimes people cant help themselves. nevertheless, i find a way to back out and not talk about other people ( bcos no one is perfect). even when people are so judgemental about what you wear or your physical appearances, you just have to step away and be like, yo dude, im a normal, fine human being just like you.

haaaaah. am glad thats outta my chest.

happy hour everyone.

A TRIBUTE TO THE LOVED ONES

i received a message on my Friendster account the other day. it was one of those forwarded messages, the type i would usually scan briefly before hitting "delete". however this message, written in Malay, started with a simple question that caught my attention. a rough translation of it goes like this:

"have you ever watched your parents while they were asleep? your father's body, once big and strong but now, the big is withered and the strong is weaker. wisps of grey peek out from his hair, wrinkles now "scar" his forehead and face.

"this man works hard every day and would sacrifice anything to make sure his family is provided for and his children get the best education possible.

"or how about your darling mother, whose soft hands once cuddled and held you close when you were a baby? now, those hands are dry and rough, bearing evidence of the challenges she faced just for us.

"this woman take care of our daily needs, constantly nagging and scolding us because of her love for us. sadly, we often miscontrue her love as a control and unfairness."

i have never thought of watching my parents while they were sleeping. oh yes, ive watched my cousins sleep when they were babies, all round and cuddly and sweet smelling. but watching my parents is just not right! in fact, it should be the other way round.

but after some time of sitting down, puffing a smoke and reading this forwarded message, i realised that there was indeed much truth in it. in fact, my parents do not have to be asleep for me to realise that they have aged. just by looking at my mother walks tells me that her legs are not as strong as they were before. or hearing her asking me for help with her flowerpots in the garden, the one she used to be able to push and drag around the garden without my help. or watching my dad lift several bag of groceries. i can easily carry those bags now. i am young and evidently it is as easy as ABC to do so. however to him, they are not only heavy, they are struggle as well.

what do all these observations tell me? why should it be crucial to the people especially growing adults? well, for a fact, my parents have aged. yes, they are ageing just as i am ageing. but as i age towards my best of years and become stronger, they in turn are becoming weaker. they were once the caregivers and i the receiver. in time, i know my role as an adolescent will reverse. like it or not, want it or not, this is LIFE.

i suppose i have always subconsciously thought that my parents would always be with me, never growing old. it made me pause and reminisce that my parents are not immortal. they, too, will one day leave the world and then me. until then, i will cherish our time together.

a tribute to everyone who is important to me, close to heart. the loves of my life, la familia.

A RANDOM POST.

weellllll.

its been ages since i sat on a comfy seat with a decent notebook in front of me. in other words, maaaan! i really know how to keep myself busy these few hectic days. pretty monotonous life ive got here. pretty cool huh? it seems like my blog is fading away. and its just a matter of time. HAHA.

THANKS TO MY THOUGHTFUL AND CONSIDERATE LIL BROTHER WHO NEVER STOPS IN REMINDING ME TO UPDATE MY BLOG. pfft.

speaking of time, 3 lab reports are due on the same day. not to mention, exam weeks are just around the corner. and the best part, call me a no brainer but i am so lazy these few days. i haven't even touch a book not even a piece of paper. (a bit of exaggeration won't hurt) but still i don't like what im doing right now. exams are just two weeks from now and here i am still blabbering about such nonsense craps. well. until here readers i bid goodbye.

i cant say (or write, in my case) anymore but to put on hold for a while and focus on my top priorities-study and study.

p/s:may i remind u that im in a hiatus mode.

(in case,some people dont understand)