MIA much?

Sorry for MIA for quite some time. Been busy for a whiiiiiiillllleeee. Ugh. I just loathe being a student & I love my girlfriend. Okay. Random much?

Have a blast, readers!

All Time Low

Dear conscience,

I’ve never felt this pitiful before. My friends are disappointing me, I don’t know how to fix it, and I know I’m doing nothing to improve the situation. I’m so lost in my life and I don’t know what the next corner will hold. I’m turning quickly but I’m not sure if I’m in the right or wrong. At this point, it doesn’t really matter though. I feel the urge to leave everyone behind and take up some new friends but I know that would hurt a lot of people and that running away doesn’t solve anything. I’m playing people like they’re my friends yet while I’m alone I don’t feel a connection at all. I have a bunch of close friends and those which I once considered close haven’t proved anything to me. I’ve tried reaching out, it didn’t help. I’ve tried being the friend I want to have, still no change. I don’t know what’s next and I’m scared where this will lead me.

My faith is at an all time low. After a high bounce I’m falling at incredible speeds. Just hours ago I would have raved about the high but oh how things have changed. I know before the healing comes the pain so I have hopes this will all turn around.

Confused,
Truth behind the Lost.